Desensitized?!

OK... I think I have understood by now in my life that you can't change anyone in this world. That's from a logic pov though. From an emotional and feeling wise, I guess I will never really understand it or to say it in more exact terms I will never stop being hurt.

What is it in daily life that makes us become desensitized to each other sensitivities? Is it the miracle of sleeping in the same bed and opening your eyes to see the same person beside you? Is it the simplicity of expecting certain feelings are always there for you? For example feeling that you are loved no matter what you do, and how much effort you put, so let's just take it easy and not put that much burden on myself!

It is the challenge of living together. I think that's why living prior to getting married is not a good idea. You simply get used to the person and take that person for  granted. What attracts us to each other at the beginning is the similarities then it becomes how each one tries to make the other one happy and then simply when you have the person beside you, you forget how hard you tried to have that person... It's then that you forget how simply taking her picture makes her happy... how she is sensitive about certain subjects which are so naively stupid sometimes but hurts her...

May be I am the same way... I know I have forgotten how I was.. I know that life is eating away my soul, piece by piece... actually  it is not life that is eating it but it is the burden of earning means for a living while maintaining my sanity between stress and the love for the wide eyed kid who poses me questions with her eye?

I guess I will find out one day but hopefully not too late...

Meanwhile I miss ... I miss the feeling of ... ok.. let's leave it...